it's better to love whether you win or lose or die. it's better to love & i will love you 'til i die

[minttown1]

So in season four of Fringe, Peter and Olivia are driving somewhere and The Airborne Toxic Event's "Changing" is playing on the radio. It's actually a song about why it's maybe not a great idea to bang the friend on whose couch you're crashing, but I'm sure it was selected because the chorus could vaguely apply to Peter's situation when taken out of context:

What if I was the same man, same man, the same I always was?

BUT ANYWAY.

It's totally my headcanon that Peter went out and bought a copy of All At Once, because so much of different bits of the songs on there remind me a bit of Peter and Olivia and the life they lead, and I love to imagine him listening to it during some of those long nights alone.

All these days just seem like they're getting longer.
The view from our room is a gloomy and overcast grey.
The weakness we left behind seems to be getting stronger.
I swear there's something in the air, and I don't know what anyone could say.
because their world is bleak

or

Now I know that I'm blind
And that you're all I see
And yeah I know it's not clever
But I just want you with me
because he misses what he thinks he's lost

and ugh
I don't know where I am
I don't know what I've done
I just go over it again and again and again
I can't sleep at night
I can't breathe
But If I drink tonight I'll get you off my mind

okay or so
Now my dad says fuck the details
Just keep your head down hard
Ya got to find yourself alone before you'll find the eyes of God

Or the, like, ultimate fact and truth of the Fringe universe(s), and our own:
Bye, bye, bye, all this dogged innocence. I can't pretend that I can tell you what is going to happen next, or how to be.

Ugh, excuse me, I'm just totally sadface and listening to this album, I'll be fine.

Comments

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

Oh, I kind of want to go out and buy this album now.

[minttown1.livejournal.com]

Alternatively, I can upload you this album? (I would not even feel bad about it. I have given TATE so much of my money.)

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

Hey, I am shameless and will not say no. (I am on Fringe 5x12 now and having ALL THE FEELINGS! OH SO MANY FEELINGS.)

[minttown1.livejournal.com]

The night I watched 5x12 and 5x13, I sobbed uncontrollably. (That's not even a spoiler, I promise. Because I cry equally at good or bad things.) So. I wish you a more reasonable emotional response than I had?

I started uploading even before I got your comment, ha. I will reply with the link as soon as it finishes.

[minttown1.livejournal.com]

Now you, too, can pretend to be Peter feeling (justifiably) sorry for himself in 2011. www.mediafire.com/?cnhqxbysnh96th8

[http://users.livejournal.com/_grayswandir_/]

Mind if I snag it too? I've never seen Fringe, but I'm impressed that these lyrics look decent even without music to back them up.

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

Amazing, thank you. :) I love the filename. Oh, Peter, darling.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_grayswandir_/]

:O Some of these are really good.

(Also, totally beside the point of your post, but I almost died when he started singing about Kiss Me, Kiss Me, Kiss Me, because I'd been this close to using a Cure icon in my comment above. When I think "good depressing music," I think The Cure, but I had no idea how much these guys were going to sound like 80's goth-pop -- or that they'd be making Cure references in their songs!)

[minttown1.livejournal.com]

Feel free! And if you fall hopelessly in love, I have more by the band.

[meeta.livejournal.com]

Oh Fringe. I need to get back to watching that!